I promised more blogging this month on my Facebook fan page. I have alot of pictures to post, a lot more to edit, alot more to even move off of the CF cards. But I thought I’d take a post and just share a little about what’s going on with me these days.

1. I shot two weddings last month. Yeah. It’s a whole new game. I didn’t sleep both nights before the day, which made my stress level even more intense. My first was for Amy Jo and Mark.  I learned alot from this wedding, and feel bad that I am still in the learning process. But like I said, I learned alot, but mostly learned what NOT to do, learned from my mistakes, learned to always always always have a CF card in your pocket and not in the back of the sanctuary so you have to run towards the back during the major moment of the day! Ouch! The other wedding was for Andrea and Adam. I feel like I took alot of what I learned from Amy Jo and Mark’s wedding and brought it to the table for Andrea and Adam. The fact that they got married at my church where I was very comfortable shooting in didn’t hurt my game either. Andrea is freakin’ gorgeous and every single picture I took of her was fantastic. Pam was there with me too, which was also comforting, and we brought along the CrazyBooth which was REALLY fun! We took over 1500 pictures of this wedding, so I am waist deep in editing. I hope to get it done ahead of schedule and be able to deliver her pics to her early.

2. I moved. I lived in WV, and had it up to *here* being so far away from everyone and everything I am involved in. So Aaron, the kiddies, and I decided to leave Wild and Wonderful West Virginia and move to the Keystone State. I grew up for the majority of my life in PA, so it was kinda like coming home. Cheesy? Yeah probably, but it’s really nice to be so close to everyone I love now. We found a super cute little Cape Cod in a neighborhood by a WHOLE BUNCH of great people I am excited to call my neighbors! Ok, so moving isn’t that big of a deal? I mean yeah, packing, moving, cleaning, painting, unpacking, settling.. Well I had the brillant idea to do it all in a week. Uh, yeah. WHY? Because I wanted to move and just get it over with. It was a great decision, but man, it was a LONG week. I am so blessed to have so many great friends in my life help me be closer to them. Everyone came around and helped us so much, by painting with me, packing with me, moving all my crap, babysitting, giving me A/C units, making me food, everything. I am truly blessed.

3. I’ve started writing again. I used to write ALOT. Like alot alot. I used to journal, write stories, poems, letters, all kinds of crap. It didn’t matter, I would just write. I remember countless sleepless nights where I would just have my pen and paper and literally write all night. So much so that I would turn my alarm off for the next morning and never have gone to sleep. I’ve been in a very reflective state lately, and probably sharing a little too much with the public, I have difficulties expressing myself in a clear and defined way in a speaking way. Writing helps me alot, because I can get everything out, and I mean everything, and then know everything I am actually thinking in a tangible way, and am able to own my thoughts and feelings with more clarity.  Instead of putting it all on another person, I can put it all on paper, without being judged or written off, and leaving the process not feeling like I’ve only pushed someone away, or shared too much. I’ve tried talking to a few people, and with some it’s been super beneficial, but with some, I just leave feeling like an idiot, because I can’t express myself in the way I want to. So I decided to write first, then when it’s time to talk to others, I already know what I’m trying to say. Wow, that sounds weak to me. But I’m just being honest, and I want to get more into that. And if writing things out first helps me, which it does, then I want to continue doing that.

4. We all make mistakes, right? Well I’ve made my share as well. And it just so happens, I’ve made alot in the past month. I’ve hurt alot of people I care about, torn down alot of people I care about, done stupid stuff because I wasn’t thinking properly. I have alot of regrets, but mistakes don’t mean anything if you don’t regret them. And I can say definetely that I’ve made mistakes I regret. I am in the process of building whatever is left of what I have destroyed. I point fingers at only myself, and I know there’s a long path in front of me, but I don’t want to be defeated anymore. My past mistakes do not define me. What I do with my mistakes and how I handle them is more so what defines me. That is character, and I am a character, no doubt. And in that character, made mistakes, and am doing my time. But when you’re down and beaten, feeling low and alone, what you do with those feelings is what really defines your character. I am going from there.

Ok, so there’s a few things that are going on in my life right now. Feel more connected, feel free to comment, let me know your thoughts, even bring it and challenge me!! I want to be more on the page, and I need people to bring me reality sometimes, so don’t be afraid, I want the challenge. I want the input. I want to know your thoughts!!!

Wrapping up this post, just remembered, one of my goals of this year is to not post without a picture. Dang, what kind of picture am I supposed to post with this sort of post?  Hope this works.